it's wiser to trade spot as a beginner. futures is a gamble even to the pro traders

what a nice year, i should not know this market. i just a normal worker earn 22u per day, now i lose all in 4 year. 13k500u and broken life. my friend and family doesnt trust me anymore.
i should end my life here, just a broken guy, no wife, no parent, no friend. and empty wallet. good bye everyone. nomore pain.